Chapter Nineteen: Misunderstandings.....
The next day
dawned but that didn't help to lessen the turmoil which Maan & Geet were
going through in their hearts & minds. The entire house was engulfed in
dead silence as if nobody ever existed there. They hadn't made any efforts to
speak to each other as they felt nothing remained to say or do after seeing the
divorce papers...
Geet hadn't slept
the entire night dealing with the pang & loneliness that had invaded her
heart...Why did her life suddenly felt so empty & broken by the fact that
Maan was planning to leave her...She didn't know what she would happen to her
once she sees his signatures on those papers...
"Why am
I so much affected? There was really nothing in this relationship so it's
better to divorce & start a life afresh!!!I should be happy for the
separation as I had always planned to remain single in life & follow my
ambitions!!!!"
She clenched her
fists trying hard to convince herself & also dissuade tears from falling...
On the other hand,
Maan was exercising aggressively in the gym...why was he in so much pain when
he knew the divorce had to happen one day...& even he wanted the same,
didn't he??Then why did he strongly feel that things were changing in their
marital life for good when in reality it was not...And that was proved by the
fact that Geet wanted divorce from him...so why should he step back!!
"Fine!!!
If she wants divorce, then so be it!!!!!!!! And I don't find any reason why we
shouldn't separate!!!! It will be better for her as well as for me!!! Even
though our marriage was real, it was still a contract'a contract of six months
which is near expiry!!!!!!!!"
In anger &
aggression, Maan headed straight in the house & proceeded towards the table
where the divorce papers were kept. He was just about to sign them...but he
realized he just couldn't...all the memories with Geet flashed the nth time in
front of his eyes making him fragile...He fought with himself but to no
avail...He tried to sign again but he wasn't able to...Lines of frustration
made their way on his forehead...
Just then Geet
came in the hall & saw him with the pen & divorce papers...She was
shocked with her heart breathed in pain but she somehow controlled her
emotions...
Their eyes
met...& the silence in the air became all the more thick...They suddenly
felt strangers standing in front of each other...as if nothing ever was there
between them on the first place...They had nothing to speak...They hated each
other as well as yearned for each other at the same time...Their feelings &
emotions were on the verge of outburst but they kept it bottled within
themselves...
Maan left for
office without saying a word. Geet was assuming that he had already signed the
divorce papers & now it was her turn...but when she had a look, the papers
weren't signed yet! Somewhere she felt a bit relieved but she refused to
acknowledge that.
"Now
that everything is over, why am not I able to sign the papers...!!!!!!!!"
Their ego was
neither letting them understand their feelings for each other not letting them
to clarify the misunderstanding...
The rest of the
day Geet tried to divert her mind in various ways but the truth was she was
broken from within even though she tried lots to deny it. By evening she grew
restless when there was no sign of Maan returning home. She thought of calling
him but then criticized her own idea.
"I don't
care at all!!!! Mujhe koi pharak nahi padhta!!!!!!"
But still she was
concerned. After a lot of tussle with herself, Geet finally gave in &
called up in office. She was told that Maan had left for New Zealand for two
days for a business deal'.
"Maan
didn't even bother to tell me about this trip!!!!!!" she was bruised, "Fine!!!!!!As if I care!!!! If he has already moved on, so
can I!!!!!!!"
The next day the
results of the fashion course were to be declared. Geet was pretty confident
that the results would be in her favor & she would finally fulfil her dream
of becoming a fashion designer & start a new life with an ambitions career
ahead & this would help her to forget about Maan completely! But nothing of
that sort happened...No doubt she topped the institution & even got some
promising fashion assignments to start with, still that didn't heal her pain
& turmoil. Inspite of the win, she still felt like she lost everything that
made her life worth living...Her career didn't matter to her when her life
itself was in jeopardy...
Geet finally
started reflecting that no other person or thing in the world can substitute
the happiness & belongingness that she had unknowingly felt with
Maan'.Also, she had not seen him for one whole day, her heart turned restless.
She reached home with her mind full of confusion, sadness & loneliness...
Her ego was losing...
There was a knock
on the door. Geet opened it to find Mrs D'costa with a smile on her face &
a chocolate cake in her hand.
"You know,
it's Mr D'costa's birthday!" she said offering a piece of cake to Geet.
Geet knew Mr
D'costa had died years ago due to some prolonged illness. Mrs D'costa grew
emotional.
"Every year
I celebrate his birthday. He was a free-spirited & jolly man, We both madly
loved each other & we got this beautiful bungalow constructed as a symbol
of our love. In all this years, there hasn't been one day when I haven't missed
him..."
She paused a
little.
"It's very
difficult to lead a lonely life. You need someone with whom you can double your
joys & lessen your sorrows., with whom you can feel heaven even on earth.
Mr D'costa always wanted me to be cheerful, come what may. So after his death,
I had decided to rent this penthouse to young mushy mushy couples so that by
seeing them happy & cuddling together, I feel Mr D'costa's is always there
with me."
And her next words
shocked Geet to the roots!
"I feel
immense joy whenever I see Maan & you together. I know it must have been
very difficult for both of you to act as a lovey- dovey couple because I know
the reality...but believe me Geet, I have seen selfless love in both of your
eyes for each other. Both of you just have to realize & accept this love to
make your life blissful."
Geet just didn't
know what to say & blankly stared at Mrs D'costa as she left...
"That
means...that means she knew from the very beginning we were pretending to be in
love...!"
Geet fell on the
bed staring up at the ceiling...& her thoughts ran deep...
~*~
It was Sid-Lorry's
wedding day. Maan had promised them that he would be back before the rituals
but things didn't fall in place as the flight got delayed. Geet didn't feel
like attending the marriage without Maan but she went thinking it would ease
her a bit.
Geet saw Sid &
Lorry seated in the mandap & remembered how in her own wedding, she &
Maan had run away from the marriage venue only to be brought back by the
police!
Then the wedding
rituals began...Sid & Lorry made each other wear garlands. Then the pandit
began reciting mantras & both of them were taking saath pheras. Geet
remembered her own seven rounds with Maan...She felt glad that the pandit was
not the fake one'.Everything was fresh in her memories...how Maan tied
manglasutra to her & even put sindoor...Her eyes became moist & her
heart beats were fast...
"I
love you Maan...love you so much..."
The words formed
on her lips as realization struck her...She realized that she had fallen in
love with him long back but had taken a lot of time to accept it...She stood
there numb, her hands ran cold at the fact that it was way too late now since
Maan had already decided for divorce...
"No! He
can't leave me! I will not let that happen! Main unhe bataungi ki main unse
kitna pyaar karti hoon...& may be even he love me...!"
Wiping her tears,
she hurriedly sat in her car & made her way to Maan's office. He should
have returned from New Zealand by now...
~*~
Khurana
Constructions
"Sharanya,
I can't do this!!" Maan took a deep breath, "I can't divorce Geet! I couldn't stay two days without her
which makes it impossible to think of the entire life time without her!"
Maan was back in
Singapore after signing the business deal. Those two days were the most
difficult days of his life. He realized that Geet was as important to him as
his breaths. Perhaps that was the sole reason why he agreed to accompany her to
Singapore from India on the first place.
"And...???" sharanya probed him.
"I love
Geet!!"
He found it hard
to deny that.
"Finally!!
Someone has accepted his feelings!!! Now go & tell it to her & now
puh-lease don't let ego come in between saying that she has to confess first
& all!! Ego can ruin any relationship!"
"Yeah! I
don't know whether she loves me or not but I am going to let her know about my
feelings & she has to fall in love with me!!"
"Wah! Kya
baat hai! Even though I'm kinda heart broken but still koi nahi, I am happy for
you!!!!!!"
Saying that,
Sharanya hugged Maan tightly.
"Drama
queen!!"
He remarked &
smiled hugged her back...
And that's when
Geet came there & saw Sharanya & Maan hugging each other...That was a
severe blow to her. She could make out that the girl was Sharanya. Geet saw
Maan's smile & misunderstood it to be because of Sharanya...
"That
means...Maan loves this girl & so wants to divorce me??? He was in New
Zealand with her."
That's the notion
Geet had formed of him. She left from there quietly. She walked aimlessly on
the road not sure whether anything was left in her life to live for...Her heart
was paralyzed in pain. It began raining heavily & her eyes let go of the
huge amount of tears that she had trapped within herself. Maan was not hers,
the thought killed her soul. The fact that he did not love her destroyed her
further...Her world had crashed into pieces & she did not have the strength
to build it back...She felt so incomplete, so lonely & held her own self responsible
for everything...
She somehow
reached home & the divorce papers were still on the table. Her face was
pale & eyes red & lifeless...
"Maan
did the right thing...I only fought & argued with him...I deserve
this...And I am no one to take away his happiness...If he is happy with
Sharanya, I won't stop him...He deserves the best girl as his life partner...I
will give him divorce & free him from this relationship..."
Her fingers were
shivering but still she took the pen in her hand...With a heavy & bruised
heart, Geet signed the divorce papers...
"That means...Maan loves this girl & so wants to divorce me??? He was in New Zealand with her."
That's the notion Geet had formed of him. She left from there quietly. She walked aimlessly on the road not sure whether anything was left in her life to live for...Her heart was paralyzed in pain. It began raining heavily & her eyes let go of the huge amount of tears that she had trapped within herself. Maan was not hers, the thought killed her soul. The fact that he did not love her destroyed her further...Her world had crashed into pieces & she did not have the strength to build it back...She felt so incomplete, so lonely & held her own self responsible for everything...
She somehow reached home & the divorce papers were still on the table. Her face was pale & eyes red & lifeless...
"Maan did the right thing...I only fought & argued with him...I deserve this...And I am no one to take away his happiness...If he is happy with Sharanya, I won't stop him...He deserves the best girl as his life partner...I will give him divorce & free him from this relationship..."
Her fingers were shivering but still she took the pen in her hand...With a heavy & bruised heart, Geet signed the divorce papers...
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